February 2011
to you.
I feel like if you can not handle something, just get the hell out. Stop trying to mend our own hearts if it is just going to end up broken. But If it is something you truly want, then go hand in hand against everything because in the end it will be the most beautiful experience. I can go against the world to be with someone I truly want, even with the waves turned against me like they are for...
January 2011
“Notoriety never seems to benefit the noted, only the notees.”
- Easy A”
Really am going to stick to this change
I messed up with everything this year, meanwhile i said I wanted to change.
I will have to stick to these goals and I WILL achieve them.
1. Become the daughter my mom deserves.
2. Become the girlfriend Nik deserves.
3. Become the bestfriend my bestfriend deserves. (like ceriene, amelia, layla, meg, dev, carly)
4. Get over a 3.0 this semester and focus on wrestling next week, i need a break.
...
I was not even finished with that text, its so easy for me to always think what I am having is good for me now. Do not get me wrong I like and adore the shit out of nik more then he knows, love well who knows that word has wronged me billions of times in my life, so that is the furthest thing from my mind as i try to piece everything back together.
Its the fact that I did nothing wrong and yet I...
meh.
I am absolutely confused today about everything, and everyone in my life. And if the choice I made yesterday is what I even wanted, I know who I am and I know what I want; but when it comes to this, I never know which way to go.
I know I want to be his, but I do not know to even where to go with that statement.
“Harry Potter author JK Rowling, admitted that Dumbledore is gay. He was in love...”
Source:What is your Date really thinking?
That's what you get when you let your heart win
Why i love tumblr as my homepage, when I have a story or a feeling and i need to share it with someone or need some advice, i can just run here and let all my feelings out and knowing that people are gonna read it even if they do not care, but it still matters. cause i have a lot of WTF moments that annoy me like this one.
Like really, I texted you back BECAUSE of how i felt about the...
Fact: It is really hard to work with a broken heart that you broke on your own.
REALLY HARD.
Merrrrr
Truth: I am starting to truly believe that nothing is truly meant to last for me since I can not even force a change out of me. Nor does it surprise me that I get myself in situations that go against me. Everything is my fault and I know it is. I do believe one day if I continue to go along the path that i am always swaying towards when I try to change, will either make me lose everyone I dearly...
Perks of Love
I think the problem with my love life, is since i became obsessed with Perks of Being a Wallflower at the age of 9-10years old, I always based on the love I want to have, as the love Charlie has for Sam. Pure, innocent and he accepts her for everything she has ever done wrong in her life. I look at this book and that love he has for her, i see it as very rare and so strong, full of passion....
“The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling...”
Real Life
I really wonder if couples that date for more then a year and break up, if they can truly be friends or if the memories stored in their heads from that relationship are too hard to erase. Or if the fallout was so bad, there’s too much pain to even try to reconnect on any level.
Thought of this cause: I Got bored and stalked one couple that broke up that i am friends with the boy, he annoys...
